Do something about it or stop whining

I have been quite angry at Verizon Wireless for the last month when I found out they were now charging $29.99/ line for a data plan for any smartphone (including the Palm Pre/ Pixi). Of course I am nearing my New Every Two and was excited to get the Palms since my Centro is fritzing constantly. Therefore, for the last month I have been obsessing constantly about why I am so angry about having to pay $30 more for a data service I don't need or want just to get a phone that has a decent calendar. Soooo... after Josh yelled at me last night to stop complaining, I decided it was time to take action. I spent last night and this morning writing a letter to Verizon regarding my complaint. I have very little hope that anything will happen or change, but it does make me feel better that I at least tried and took some action. Now to wait patiently for a response.... never my favorite thing to do. And even more challenging, be able to have some peace about this entire situation.
God into your hands I place this situation, my frustration,and my anger. Please give us wisdom on how to proceed from here, patience to wait for a response, and peace from acceptable resolution.

Be Still and Know that I AM

Be Still and Know that I AM... when overwhelmed with choices...
Be Still and Know that I AM... when obsessing about silly phone stuff...
Be Still and Know that I AM... when debating about baby names...
Be Still and Know that I AM... when both girls are crabby and crying...
Be Still and Know that I AM... in the morning and at night...
Be Still and Know that I AM... through a parent's venting at me...
Be Still and Know that I AM... when scared about the future...
Be Still and Know that I AM... as I think about what life with be like with a newborn and twin girls...
Be Still and Know that I AM... everyday, every night, every minute....

God please help me to BE STILL and KNOW that YOU ARE GOD!!!!

Seeking Him Daily

I am starting this blog with the hope that it will return me to daily writing, praying, and reflecting on what God is doing in my life. I have kept a journal since I was in high school; however, with the birth of the twins I have let it all go. Sure I may journal maybe once a month, but this is from someone that used to journal on a daily basis. I desire to seek God more deeply, to be able to reflect on His working in my life on a daily basis, and to focus on what matters in life. God has so richly blessed me. He has given me a loving husband who loves me even on bad days like today when I am just plain out grouchy. God has given me two beautiful, loving daughters who amaze me everyday anew. Even today as I was balling my eyes out through a super sad book, they immediately crawled up on my lap, gave me hugs and kisses as they murmured to me, "its okay mommy; no crying; its okay". Of course this made me cry even more! Today though, I have been discontent with everything. I am bent out of shape about wanting the Palm Pixi, but not wanting to pay $30 more a month for a data plan; missing church because we lost the keys (which just so happened to be in my purse that I swear I checked twice and did not see); and crying my way through a super sad book. There is and was no good reason for being so crabby, but I was! I hate being angry and unhappy with everything, when I should be happy and content. God has greatly blessed me. I do have a phone that actually is still working at the moment; I had a husband that watched the girls while I read for three hours, and an awesome family that I could have had fun with all day. Instead I was crabby.
God, forgive me for not appreciating every minute of this life and family that you have given me. Get rid of this wannum wiegand syndrome (as my dad calls it) and give me overwhelming contentment and appreciation for the things with which you have so greatly blessed me. Help me seek you daily for you are my good and gracious comforter and God!