Josh would have been 38 tomorrow, yet forever 36. How is it possible?! Can there be an off button for tears? Two years and yet it seems like yesterday we were singing happy birthday with the kids hanging over his shoulder and plopping on his lap to blow out the candles of the hideously decorated cake (no one will every call me a baker!). The knowing of the significance of these days to come, and the missing of the one we want here, makes for heightened emotions for us all. We have lots of conversations about how we all are feeling more during this time, but it doesn’t mean we can take it out on each other. Or in other words, “You feel like crap, but it doesn’t mean you can crap on your brother/ sister!.” I think WAY TOO MUCH about what to do on those significant days. Yet I do hope/believe that the anticipation of days leading up to the dreaded days is much worse than the day of. Right now our plan tomorrow is to help a friend move in the morning and then go to the movies and get pizza for dinner. Sounds about a perfect day for Josh. He loved movies and especially pizza. Honestly the thought of sitting in a movie theatre escaping for 2 hours sound just about perfect. Praying for peace and comfort.
May the God of peace guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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