Trigger

The last few days have been ROUGH! So odd because with the beautiful weather, I'd expect my mood to reflect it.  However, there is a song that comes on the radio that has a phrase about dry bones and while the song overall is positive for some reason it just triggers me to these horrid pull-over-on-the-side-of-the- road-because-I-can't-stop-hystically-sobbing-enough-to-see panic type things. While I know with full certainty that Josh is alive and well and so full of unspeakable joy in heaven, the reality also exists that the physical hand I held almost every day for 15 years is six feet under ground. This I can't wrap my head and heart around. And unfortunately the imagery in this song is just too much for me. It has been haunting me the last few days. Pray with me for freedom from these horrid thoughts and images, and peace as only Christ can provide.

Pray also for my girls as tomorrow they have the daddy-daughter dance. One of their favorite days each year which has been forever altered. My brothers are taking them and while they are excited to go and dance with friends, they are so devastated to not have their daddy. Pray for them. Pray their souls are comforted, they are filled with joy, and have a wonderful night with uncles and friends.

And finally I praise God that today was finally a good day: beauty, sunshine, warmth, children laughing, friends, good conversations, and fulfilling work. I also had a week full of the joy that comes with friends having new babies (always a blessing!). Praising God for the mercies that come with each new day. 

The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves.  He will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love. Zephaniah 3:17