3 tonsillectomies,, oh my!

Today all three of my children go in for surgery to have their tonsils removed. After years of strep throat and gigantic tonsils, it's time. I have second guessed myself a million times, and yet I know that if Josh was alive he would say to get them out in a heart beat as he struggled with strep throat, sleep apnea, and issues with his tonsils throughout his adult life. My children all seem to be taking after him in that department. Yet, it is also thinking of Josh and the fragility of life that has this momma up early praying to the Lord to protect my children and bring them through this well. For it is very clear to me how there is no guarantee that anyone will grow old. There is no guarantee that my children will be fine. This truth is terrifying, and often sends me into the tailspin of anxiety. And yet, I keep making myself turn to the Lord also knowing that God has numbered each one of our days. It was no accident that Josh died when he did. God had numbered the days of his life before one of them came to be. At this point as much as I wish he was still here, and know that God is mourning with us, Josh is ultimately right where he is supposed to be- with Jesus. He has numbered my children's days as well.  So I go into this day praying desperately, but also making a choice to trust in the sovereignty of the Lord. For to who else is there to turn but to my God who promises good for me and my family. To my God who loves my children more than I could ever. To my God who knows my heart and loves me.

Pray with me for my children. Pray that the surgery would go well. Pray that they would come out of anesthesia well. Pray that they would have no ill effects from the medications. Pray they would take their medications and drink lots. Pray that they would have little to no pain. Pray they don't have to deal with the residual ear pain. Pray they would sleep well at night. Pray they would have good attitudes each day with no whining and crying.  Pray that their recovery is the most speedy and amazing of any children ever. ;)   Pray that God would give me an extra measure of grace, patience and selfless love for them. Please pray.

Your eyes saw my unformed body;all your days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. Psalm 139:16