Schools out for summer? Not quite yet.

I think I got a bit overzealous because while the kids are definitely out for summer, I am still limping along for these last few days of work. To say that my emotional and mental reserves are spent is the understatement of the century. I NEED A BREAK! The challenge is that going straight into 24-7 parenting and refereeing 3 kids who are also grieving and struggling to adjust to this new normal isn't exactly restful. We are all struggling, surviving, and walking with grief in different ways.  This makes things very challenging as when each one of us is having a bad grief day varies and sometimes collides with a bang. How we each deal with it differs too, which adds its own dimension of difficulty. Praying God would help us all through these coming weeks and that we would be able to rest, grieve and find new life together.

Behold I am doing a new thing;
    now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness
    and rivers in the desert.
                           Isaiah 43:19

Schools out for summer!

Schools out for summer! YAY!!! While part of me is terrified of what the unstructured life of summer will bring, but at this point the main feeling is just pure relief that I don't have to pack another lunch, sign off on another planner, or race to get them to and from school on time. We need a break!!! I need a break even from the job that I love so much. I managed surprisingly well for months at work. It was a relief in some ways to pour into others and not deal with my own life issues for a brief bit. However, the grief is catching up with me and my emotional reserves are tapped out. One cross email from a parent and I am in tears. A couple normal phone calls in a row from parents leave me stressed out because what was once easy to balance now feels just totally overwhelming. Focusing is near impossible for an extended period of time. Yes. Yes, it is time for summer. Thank you God for the respite that summer vacation provides.

The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand. THe sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night. Psalm 121:5-6