Desires of the heart

What is it about possessions that drive me so insane. I hate how I can want something so badly for such a long time. I think about it, plot how I can get it, and research it to no end.  When and if I finally get it, it brings 'happiness' for awhile, but eventually the newness fades and I am on to the next thing I just 'have to have'.  It is a process I strongly dislike.  What is it about not being able to get something that makes me obsess about getting it even more than before?! UGH!

My most recent obsession has been the I Phone. Every since Caleb lost my Palm Pre, I have been obsessing about what phone to get next.  Instead of getting a new phone, we decided to save some money by using my old phone instead of spending money on a data plan. I feel like that is the right decision for us now, but for some reason that doesn't stop me from wanting a new phone even more than I did before.  In my head I reason we are saving money by just using my old phone, I probably wouldn't use over half the things the I Phone would be able to do, that my happiness in it would wear out quickly..... yet I am still obsessing.

I keep praying that God would take away the desire for these stupid possessions that don't bring lasting happiness at all. I know this in my head. My prayer is that I would feel it as well. That my desire would not be for these fleeting things, but for the desires of God's own heart. I want to desire God first and foremost at all times and in all ways. That I would be obsessing, thinking, researching, talking about the things that really matter to God: loving, caring, teaching, and sharing God with my children, my students, my friends, my family, and all the other people God puts in my path. 

My three Little Monkeys ....definitely a desire of the heart from God Himself! :)

Cuddling- my goofy girls decided to suck their thumb like Caleb!