
Monday, January 16, 2017
Mourning with children
I envy the kids some times. They have such a way of compartmentalizing. They escape through play, reading and imagination. Yet one moment they are happy as a lark, laughing and having a blast, and then the next they are curled up in a ball sobbing in your arms. Tonight was one of the sobbing in a ball nights. Caleb threw the biggest monster of a tantrum unlike any I've ever seen- over not being able to see a movie tonight. The hysterical crying finally ceased a solid hour later as he whispered, "I really miss daddy" and fell into my arms to fall asleep as I rubbed his back. He has reverted back to thumb sucking constantly. Kay followed his tantrum up less than fifteen minutes later with her own breakdown, so sad and so mad. I hold them as they sob, begging God to lessen their pain. I don't know how to comfort them; how to give them solace, so I play music. Songs about God holding them, God loving them, God our good, good father. I spent my whole life trying to protect them and in one minute their safety is shattered. Pray for my kiddos.
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These kiddos are so blessed to have you as their mom. You provide a very safe place for them. Your unwavering love for them and faith in God is all they need to heal. You are exactly what they need, don't forget that God was taking care of them when he made you their mom.
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