I am blaming it on the rain. Never mind the grief stuff. It's all the rains fault for this horrible no good very foul mood I am in. Okay maybe add in a bit of grief, with a whole lot of 2 hours on the phone with AAA and my bank to fix their mistake (still not fixed), a dash of angst and worrying about the future, and a pinch of I forgot to RSVP to every event in the next month and the allergy appointment I was supposed to go to today. Whoops. But in all, I am just going to blame it on the rain which stopped me from taking my walk... oh how I need that walk/run/ music blasting/ prayer time. Yet none for me today because of this dumb rain. It's hard on days like this. I don't quite know what to do with myself. I don't want to spread my foul mood to others so I try to keep it to myself. Who wants to be around a big whiner. I am just miserable. In some ways it makes me miss Josh all the more. It would be him I'd call to vent about this stupid insurance company screwing things up. And it would be then he would wrap his arms around me and give me a great big hug. Goodness I miss his hugs. I miss being safe and warm and small and loved.
He will cover you with his fathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. Psalm 91:4
It's the rain... totally... it's got me in a mood too.
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