Growing old

There was a video that I saw today that was of an older couple reflecting on their life and years together.  They were so sweet as they shared their love for each other that grew over time. I made me think of how Josh and I dreamed of growing old together. We planned to retire and Josh would work contingent as a traveling histotech to allow us to go all over the country for weeks at a time to explore. Doesn't that sound wonderful? It hit me today just how much we lost. Not just the immediate needs but the hopes and dreams of years to come. I can never get that back.  Needless to say all this thinking and mourning left me with a giant headache for most of the afternoon. UGH! No fun!